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Lifestyle , 1 May 2018

Why Am I Still Being Asked About Not Having Children In 2018?

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Seven years ago today, I walked down the aisle in a little church in Austria and got married. It was a delightful day filled with friends and family and, thanks to the language barrier and a slightly inebriated organist who played Here Comes The Bride thrice, hilarity.

My husband and I, once recovered from all the merriment, had a debrief. We discussed who’d kissed whom, who’d been the must drunk (definitely the man who decided to stick a fair few of the wursts the hotel dished up to sustain everyone at around midnight into his flies and walk around with them hanging out), who’d gone to bed first and last (me and my husband, respectively – I clambered into bed at around 2am, shattered, while he stayed up until dawn), and, of course, what had been said.

Resoundingly, the comment that rang in both our ears was the question of babies. Despite there supposedly being no stigma remaining among our friends and family about fornicating prior to marriage and even having children, it seemed that to those around us our tying of the knot wasn’t merely to signal and celebrate our seriousness about one another, but also as a precursor to having children – or at least I couldn’t think of any other reason for the shower of child-related chat that I had directed my way in the wake of my nuptials (especially considering that I’d never expressed even the slightest interest in getting, as one well-wisher put it, ‘sprogged up’).

After speaking to my husband, I dismissed the questions as politeness – after all, in the few minutes you spend chatting to the bride and groom, there’s little to say beyond ‘congratulations’ and ‘you look beautiful’ – so maybe the baby chat was a nice way of showing interest in our relationship for those outside of it? 

But then the comments followed me from the happy zone of wedding weekend into my life. It started with ‘any plans to have kids?’, then turned into ‘when do you think you want kids?’ I wasn’t offended, obviously – but I did wonder why these questions continued to come my way and why, when I was so busy doing things other than reproducing, it would even be a topic of conversation. ‘First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes the baby,’ seemed to be a line from a nursery rhyme that was still playing in so many people’s ears – and after a few years of it, I was pretty bored of churning out answers.

That said, I am, by nature and by vocation, rather an open book. I don’t mind talking about my lack of desire to have children at the moment, even though some have then questioned my ‘feminine instincts’ and asked whether I am nurturing, to which I always firmly respond that being a mother doesn’t mean that one is nurturing and feminine or vice versa. I’m enjoying my career and we quite frankly just haven’t reached the stage as a couple where we’re planning parenthood. And while the conversation is one I’m very willing to have, answering, say, my second cousin’s husband’s questions about why I haven’t had children in the time that they’ve produced two wears thin pretty quickly.

Now, after seven years, two responses prevail whenever the topic of children arises around me: ‘do you want kids at all?’ This from bolder, more forthright sorts. Otherwise the topic of children is mostly met with silence and a look of sympathy, which, on the occasion I’ve probed, I’ve learned is reserved for women with fertility problems. This is where the rub lies for me. Conversation I can handle, but slightly spiked comments or silent (erroneous) judgement drives me mad – and I feel both keenly.

I was recently at a friend’s house when their mum popped over for a cup of tea. After covering the usuals, we started talking about children and the huge responsibility that having them is. I said ‘well exactly, that’s one of the reasons I just want to wait. I’ve got Monty anyway!’ Their mum, who is a warm, charming woman and of whom I’ve always been enormously fond, let out a sigh of relief and said ‘gosh Madeleine – I’d just assumed you were struggling to conceive! That’s great news.’ I know it was intended kindly, but the idea that she’d been quietly thinking things about my fertility stung.

Much worse than my annoyance is the fact that if this is my experience, it is likely to be the experience of many other women, too. Those women may not be childless out of choice. They may have fertility issues, not be in a position financially to have children, their partner may be impotent, their marriages unhappy. They may be painfully, heartbreakingly childless. So while for me, being (currently) childless bears no pain because it is (to the best of my knowledge) a choice, for many, it won’t be, and the question will provoke unspeakable pain and possibly embarrassment. My advice if you’re going to a wedding and don’t know what to say to the bride afterwards? Ask if she’d like a glass of water. In my experience, brides are always thirsty and this is the one question they’ll be delighted to hear.


  • Suzanne Scott says:

    Such a brilliant piece, Maddie.

  • Kelly Glen says:

    A very interesting post, it is definitely nobody’s business to ask this question of anyone, as you say there might be a number of different reasons why people don’t have any children. I have always known I don’t want children and nothing will ever change that but to have others question that is wrong. I’m sure there are many others who also feel like this and it should not be something people are made to feel guilty about.
    Take care and all the best.

    • Mads says:

      Thank you Kelly. I couldn’t agree more – why assign guilt to anyone living life with children or without? It’s so odd and, based on how many people have gotten in touch, apparently really common.

  • Sue Dilworth says:

    Great article Madeleine. My husband and I waited around 7 years before we started our family and I known only too well the comments and looks from family and friends. That was 37 years ago and I would have hoped times had changed this stigma but obviously not.

  • Sue Ralfe says:

    I think that all of the media coverage about ‘running out of time at 35’ and ‘reduction in egg potency’ has made the situation far worse lately. It’s causing a lot of anxiety. I also left it seven years, I think it becomes obvious when and if the time is right. Great article Madeleine and I will definitely keep the ‘water’ question up my sleeve! X

    • Mads says:

      Thanks Sue! I couldn’t agree more – there’s a lot of scaremongering around fertility. It’s such a personal thing, nobody can tell you when you are or aren’t ready. Everyone’s life plays out differently and I think that should be celebrated more X

  • Scrapmate says:

    This touched a nerve with me. We were very young when we got married and not ready to have children but that didn’t stop family and friends dropping not-so-subtle hints about starting a family. Four years later when we were a little more established we decided we were ready. Unfortunately it took another 8 years for me to conceive. I can still remember the hurt of having to fend off constant questions about why we had no children (and that was 25 years ago). I don’t think it’s anyone’s business except yours and your partner’s.

    • Mads says:

      That sounds so stressful – and I can only imagine the hurt at answering questions when you were trying. Thank you for sharing that – it’s made me feel much less alone in my opinion!

  • Jane says:

    I have known ever since I was a teenager that I didn’t want children, I’m just not interested! Fortunately I met and married a man who has never had any interest in having children either. We are perfectly happy and content with it just being us and our cat, it’s a peaceful household. I’m 50 now so the questions have petered out, although anybody who knows me well never asked because I’d always been upfront about my lack of interest in children. Stick to your guns and have children if and when it’s right for you and your husband!

    • Mads says:

      Hi Jane – well good for you! So pleased to hear that you owned that decision. Fully intend on doing that too! Xx

  • I’m 26 and I still get asked how many kids I have or why I don’t have any. I find I usually get asked this by ladies of the older generation though as I’m sure it was the norm back then to have children at a younger age,but saying that a lot of people I know from school have children too. I guess everyone is ready at different points in their lives or not ready at all and either is perfectly OK. xxx

    • Mads says:

      Fully agree. I think the generational thing of course plays a part – but it really is exhausting to have to fend off questions all the time! Xx

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